…Marriage ? …..or Girlfriend first ?….. or just single alone ?

I’ve been in low mood for a long period, for sadness of leaving NYC, failed for exam of NCTU Master’s degree, and powerlessness beyond description. Just aware of getting older, and look at others have good family, even they have babies. And I’m still single alone. Dislike current job, but not set up to do further decision. Short person and with no money, no any goal in life, what can I seek for, ask for, yell for? I don’t go to church often, what’s the reason? Maybe due to uncomfortable of the ones in HsingChu. God knows it ! Is it the time to leave now? Or am I just belongs to Strawberries, right? Arrr………… Just feel down.